Pluto, Power, and Me
Pluto is in retrograde right now. Retrograde usually has such a bad vibe to it and everyone warns about those retrogrades. But, with Pluto being an outer planet (and for this purpose, I’m calling it a planet), the retrograde isn’t necessarily bad. And it isn’t as strong as those inner planet retrogrades (like Mercury. Shhhh, that’s the one we don’t want to talk about.).
Pluto retrograde gives us the opportunity to look inside and see what parts of us need a little clean up, remodel, upgrade (upgrade during the retrograde?). Where do you think you need to do some self work? What habits do you need to start or let go of? Where do you need to do some emotional/spiritual healing? There is a lot of power potential in this self-introspection. What is your relationship with power?
Or is it “relationship to power”?
…and so it begins.
I like thinking of it as “with power” better. Power has such a negative connotation, especially with “to”. It already has a feeling of “control” and then you add “to” and it seems to double the control. “With” makes it seem like we’re a team.
I don’t always immediately think of it this way. When I feel out of sorts, or anxious, or out of control, or just not wanting to change, I try to control it all — exert my power over whatever it is to bend it to my liking. That never feels good. And it creates even worse results. And then I feel worse about those results, and on and on.
But, if I look at my power as the things that make me who I am, then it seems compatible and possible. What if my power is: compassion, knowledge, curiosity, softness, loving, kind, tenacious, an advocate, supportive, organized, trusting, trustworthy, see different points of view, allow the humanness, and all of what is the true me? Then it is peaceful. Well, maybe not peaceful but definitely less of fight and struggle. I can stop, breathe, and really look at what is going on inside and around myself. I can see what I need to change. I can find out what I want to change. I can then make a plan to actually make real changes for the better. Hopefully for everyone.
When I see it as control, I am trying to just make it better for me. Not really seeing who else is involved or how it will involve them. And rarely do I feel better when I try to control the hell out of something.
Figuring this out is great! I can really see the potential in things. But, is thinking I need to define what I mean when I think of power really just trying to control myself and make sure I get the right answer?
Or, maybe I am using my powers of curiosity, knowledge, trusting the process, and organization to get a good path in place for the upgrade to Emily 2022.
