Don’t Let Go

I’ve been learning Astrology and Tarot this year. I don’t plan to “do” anything with it, other tan just use it for self-reflection and insight. Plus, it’s always been something I’ve found interesting but didn’t know much about.

This year, the March new moon is on Wednesday, March 2. New moons are time for setting new intentions, goals, moving forward. So, leading up to that is a good time to review the previous month’s intentions, or just general self-reflection time. A common self-reflecting question is “What am I ready to let go of?”

As I sit here and think about that question, I can rattle off the things I ALWAYS say I’m ready to let go of. But, since they are always the same things, apparently I am not ready to let go of them. I realized that I’m not ready to do what I have to do to really let go of them. And that bothers me. But then I feel annoyed because of how I “should” be ready to let go of something and I’m not. That’s what they tell us all, right? That we should “Let go of what’s not serving you anymore”? Let’s just add this to the list of things I don’t do right in society.

I’m not playing the victim role here, and this isn’t another post about the failings of society (I write about that enough). Those initial thoughts are just setting up another path of questions to answer. Why am I not ready to let go of anything? Why do I want to hang on to the things that I don’t like so much? Why do I always want to let go of the same things? Are the things I think and say I want to let go of real things or just vague answers because I think I should have an answer? And, most importantly, is it bad if I don’t want to let go of things? Even if they bother me?

And that right there is the point of this type of self-reflection. You see and then ask yourself new questions. Things you’ve never realized before. Ways to organize your thoughts like you haven’t before. Sometimes in just asking yourself a new question, and seeing it written down, you get your answer.

The line of questions I just listed ended up with questions that are actually my answer. I remembered that I get to decide what “bad” means. I get to decide what bothers me, and if I want it to keep bothering me. And that is, I guess, what I am really ready to let go of.

I’m letting go of feeling bad if I don’t want to let things go.

I’m letting go of thinking that the things that “bother” me have to actually bother me.

I can actually like those things, because those things don’t bother me. What I think about those things or how I think they are a problem are what have me feeling bothered.

And that can be it. There doesn’t have to be any more to it. Or there can be more to it if you want there to be. You get to do whatever you want with this.

I’ve been learning Astrology and Tarot this year. I don’t plan to “do” anything with it, other than just use it for self-reflection and insight. Plus, it’s always been something I’ve found interesting but didn’t know much about.

This year, the March new moon is on Wednesday, March 2. New moons are time for setting new intentions, goals, moving forward. So, leading up to that is a good time to review the previous month’s intentions, or just general self-reflection time. A common self-reflecting question is “What am I ready to let go of?”

As I sit here and think about that question, I can rattle off the things I ALWAYS say I’m ready to let go of. But, since they are always the same things, apparently I am not ready to let go of them. I realized that I’m not ready to do what I have to do to really let go of them. And that bothers me. But then I feel annoyed because of how I “should” be ready to let go of something and I’m not. That’s what they tell us all, right? That we should “Let go of what’s not serving you anymore”? Let’s just add this to the list of things I don’t do right in society.

I’m not playing the victim role here, and this isn’t another post about the failings of society (I write about that enough). Those initial thoughts are just setting up another path of questions to answer.. Why am I not ready to let go of anything? Why do I want to hang on to the things that I don’t like so much? Why do I always want to let go of the same things? Are the things I think and say I want to let go of real things or just vague answers because I think I should have an answer? And, most importantly, is it bad if I don’t want to let go of things? Even if they bother me?

And that right there is the point of this type of self-reflection. You see and then ask yourself new questions. Things you’ve never realized before. Ways to organize your thoughts like you haven’t before. Sometimes in just asking yourself a new question, and seeing it written down, you get your answer.

The line of questions I just listed ended up with questions that are actually my answer. I remembered that I get to decide what “bad” means. I get to decide what bothers me, and if I want it to keep bothering me. And that is, I guess, what I am really ready to let go of.

I’m letting go of feeling bad if I don’t want to let things go.

I’m letting go of thinking that the things that “bother” me have to actually bother me.

I can actually like those things, because those things don’t bother me. What I think about those things or how I think they are a problem are what have me feeling bothered.

And that can be it. There doesn’t have to be any more to it. Or there can be more to it if you want there to be. You get to do whatever you want with this.